Bonda :)

 

Assalamualaikum.

 

It’s been awhile! Sorry guys. Nak dapat idea untuk menaip ni bukan senang. Kadang kadang dah taip panjang berjela tup tup tak tau nak ending macam mane. Maksudnye takde 'moral of the entry' so follower baca macam sia sia. I kan blogger picisan je. Ade ke orang nak baca kalau setakat update membebel tanpa hala tuju ke jalan yang benar? Macam takde kan –.–"

 

Ok dah. Bukan soal blog picisan yang mahu disembangkan tapi tentang bonda. Pejam celik pejam tak celik celik (ehh?) lagi seminggu je tinggal dalam 2012. Rasa macam baru semalam tengok bunga api tahun baru kat belakang rumah. Lepas ni 2013. Umur tambah lagi satu dah jadi 25. Boyfriend takde. Kahwin entah bila… blablabla. Ehhhh apehal ter-cerita pasal diri sendiri pulak ni!

 

Huhh tarik nafas. Lepas. Tarik nafas lagi. Lepas. And now back to the topic. Tahun baru dengan bonda memang sinonim because she was born on 1st January! Every year bonda was like.. "Wahh satu dunia cuti nak celebrate birthday mama kann.." Sambil senyum senyum tengok langit, buat muka terharu. Over taw!

 

So cerita pasal Bonda.. You know what, I or we (siblings) always relied on her. On any situations. Any-unhappy-thing happened. Anything we just like..

 

" Maaa.. tengok ni. Macam ada koyak sikit la dekat lengan baju ni "

" Mum.. Muka naek jerawat la. Dah buruk dah. Alaaaaa acane ni.. Nak cantik! Nak cantik! "

" Mother.. Tengok ni bakal menantu kesayangan you buat hal lak taknak jawab call. Cari laen boleh tak? Hikhik "

" Hello bonda.. Acane nak masak ayam masak kicap? Ayam dengan kicap ada dah ni.. Lagi? "

" Mama.. Ok tak pakai dress up camni? Tudung ni match tak? "

 

 

And for every single question, she will have the best answers, the best solutions.

 

" Ambil benang jarum. Sini ma jahitkan "

" Banyak berangan la tu. Makan ubat cuci darah, lepas tu pakai krim malam biar hilang kesan jerawat. Seminggu mesti cun dah! "

" Die tengah drive kot. Try call esok la. Takyah gatal sangat nak cari laen. Ma suka dia je jadi menantu ma.. "

" Ape la masak ayam kicap pun tak tahu. Itu la dulu suruh masuk dapur sebok maen facebook lah, belog lah, hape semua lah blablabla.. Ni masak untuk berapa orang? Bahan tumis semua ada beli tak? Mula mula…. "

" Macam tak kena je tudung tu. Cari la warna terang sikit. Pastu ambil brooch ma tu letak kat bahu. Haaa baru ok! "

 

 

As like every mother in the world did, membebel panjang dulu sebelum bagi jawapan. Biasalah tu kan. Dalam umur 24 ni baru I sedar yang bonda adalah segalanya. Kalau tanya kat ayahanda, he will also have the answer but not as complete as mother’s. Paling koman pun ayahanda kan jawab..

 

" Go and ask your mum.. "

 

=.= "

 

 

Baru baru ni bonda and her new family went for a family trip to Cameron Highlands. This is not the first time she left us for a holiday but this is my first time I feels like 'jauhnya mama pergi..' Almost every hour I will call her to know where she go, is everything all right up there, how’s the weather, dah makan ke belum, esok balik pukul berapa etc. etc. I don’t know what it’s called but I can say that I MISS HER like in every second.

 

Pernah dulu I move out sebab ada selisih faham dengan bonda. Sebelum pindah I’m thinking of 'is there anything else that I need her to help for, anything that will make me to look for her'. After move out then I realized 'susahnya mama takde..' To accompany me shopping new-home-stuffs, to help me clean up the house, teach me how to arrange those stuffs. Because mother always knew better, right?

 

Alhamdulillah, it is not too late for me to realize how important a mother in life could be. Walaupun pada umur 24 tahun. Allah berikan I peluang untuk memperbaiki kesilapan lama, untuk lebih menghargai apa yang ada didepan mata. That’s why Allah said mother comes as the first three important person before father, to be respect and love.   

 

Ya Allah, Ampunilah bagiku segala dosaku dan juga dosa kedua ibu bapaku dan kasihanilah mereka keduanya sebagaimana mereka memelihara dan mendidikku semasa kecil.. Aminn

 

 

1st January 2013. Selamat Hari Lahir (in advance) yang ke-41 buat Bonda tercinta :)

 

Thanks for being the sweet and sour mother in the world. Thanks for every inspiration that have lighten my 24 years of life. Thanks for everything. I mean every single thing that we have gone through, together.

I love you MOMMY !

 

 

 

I wonder how am I gonna live without her :'(